Sunday, December 11, 2011

How can we move forward?

I have been in a de facto relationship with my partner for 7 years. About 3 years ago I got sick and subsequently, got an insurance pay-out and we moved to the country to property I had owned before I met him. My partner has basically given up on looking for a job, it's very frustrating and it really gets me angry. Yet he says he will not move again. He is basically living off the money I have. I am not well enough to go back to work yet and obviously now that we are in the country the employment options are limited. The money will not last forever and one of us needs to find some employment. He spends his time working on our farm but won't listen to me as it's only a hobby farm, it will never make a worthwhile living. Sometimes I am so frustrated I just want to get strong enough to go back to work and leave him. Other times I think I would miss the companionship we are both 40 now and I enjoy his company most of the time. And yet other times I just feel used. I could move back to the city and start all over again. Obviously if I leave him it will also cost me, I would have to sell my home etc. It's a real co-dependant relationship and I'm really confused about what to do. I would appreciate some mature responses as to what I can do to try and move my life forward, it was all going pretty well until I got sick.

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